(Continuation from yesterday)

After the Soviet Union was collapsed, Russia was revitalized. There was a person who forecasted the collation near by me.

It was my father.

His theory is very simple that "no race, no drive to work".

On the other hand, in my opinion at that time, I believed that "many contradictions come to decrease step by step with covering defaults each others".

There are many self-designation "socialist countries" in the world.

But I think there are two types of "socialist country". One is to become a dead letter about the social public policies. The other is to become a despotic state.

Thinking the above, my father's simple logic is right, I think.

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Let me change the topic.

The other day, I watched a popular variety TV program, that a showfolk comes out his/her failure of their life, and gives us some advices in their lecture.

In this program, not only the failure of their own, the failure of historical great people are introduced.

"Marcus" was introduced at the last show, and the showman explained failures of his life and the process from the start of the Soviet Union to the end Marxism-Leninism.

"The purpose of "Kapital" is to realize an equal society"

When he explained the phrase loudly, I was really surprised with wide eyes.

(To be continued)

When I was young, I was learning the piano, and I did (could) not read the score.

I remembered I heard the piano teacher's playing, copied it ear, and took it for the next week.

However, I still think that "I wonder why that piano lesson was so painful."

In order for finger work smoothly, I was ordered a training to continue to play the same score again and again. Needless to say, it was nothing more than pain.

"I don't want to become a professional pianist"

I thought so at the time, and I think too.

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A good skier is likely to take a beginner to a difficult slope (intermediate level or higher).

And, the good skier "helps" the beginner to "hate skiing", like reversing the cart and the horse.

I mean, a feeling of "I want you to love skiing" leads to the worst result.

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In another case, a good cook is likely to make a dish of eggplants and carrots for a junior high school girl who dislike eggplants and carrots, (hereinafter the same).

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You mean,

both a strong feeling of "making someone happy" and acts based on that feeling, are to "become unhappy with someone"

and, the conclusion drawn from here, is

"the feeling of "making someone happy" is arrogant and outrageous"

and, the thought is

"using this guy for making me fun" is subordinate and selfish.

(To be continued)

"Unusually, you had a burst of laughter didn't you?"

My wife said to me that.

It seems that it has become less used to laugh lately. - Well, if I live for half a century, it is not something I can only laugh with.

Also, I "dislike" the content that makes someone laugh at making people foolish or cheating...

However, I am not an elegant person to say the above.

However, since the contents need "physical strength" and "nervous" at the same time, I pretty feel rather tiresome.

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Well, aside from that, the reason why I had a burst of laughter, is that I just watched a TV programs.

Unusually, it seemed to be addicted to my point of laugh.

It is an animation called "Hinamatsuri(Hinna Festival)".

(Continuation from yesterday)

This is a behavioral psychology that leads to all kinds of organizations as well as club activities and circles.

For example,

Religious groups do not study other religious doctrines, even if they are not cults.

The members of a political organization can not explain even the purpose of establishing their own organization. In particular, members of political groups with radical thought and action (e.g. terrorism).

The story is not uncommon that corporate groups could not have changed their established business model and persisted in their way until the day of bankruptcy.

"Everyone felt troublesome"

That's all.

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"Troublesome" excludes people who try to introduce new things into the organization's way.

It is also cumbersome to respond to new ways.

And, this "troublesome" becomes more pronounced as they get older.

Therefore, the more human beings become, the more they become "conservative". Moreover, to the worse, people around us don't give opinion to the elderly.

Older people have more connections because of the length of time they live (regardless of their other abilities). This connection is something that can not be ignored in running the organization.

In addition, the elderly are also allowed to use "weakness" as a weapon.

It is hard to go against this "weapon" and hence their presence acts interfere with any convenient thing (eg, communication based on a smartphone).

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That is the conclusion of this story.

"Ebata is an elderly person and a socially weakness. He feels everything is "troublesome""

"Therefore, you don't have to put out your hand in Ebata's way, and give an opinion. You are silent and follow his way"

Please carry out all reforms and improvements in the world after my death.

At midnight last night, my wife's smartphone WiFi slumped, and then the network troubles begin to spread out my home.

This problem was resolved, and I restarted the suspended equipment, and it took about 3 am for some reasons.

I thought, "this is my weak point".

Even if they cannot use the network, my family is harmed.

Well, they may not be able to take remote lectures.

My strategy was to leave the network alone and go to sleep soon.

But I rarely can't leave things, if a problem is in front of me.

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This includes computer and server construction, and network settings.

In contrast, I am not good at trust, friendship, affection, meetings, politics, approvals, and other incompetent neighbors and relatives. I don't like anything have human being as a control component.

Because I can't move people as I hope.

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Anyway, this time, I cleared it at 3:00 am, but if this took longer, I think I would have stayed up all night.

If this was a "human," I think I could give up in less than a second.

In my diary the other day, I wrote that I could not give a very over-reactionary high evaluation to the movie "Rurouni Kenshin the final".

(For example, is it possible that "Kaoru's corpse" doesn't appear in this story? Or..., yeah, I'll stop it)

Today, I found out the main reason for this and would like to report it to you.

"Because the shock I felt when I saw 'Rurouni Kenshin: Reminiscence version' 10 years ago was too much"

In my mind, the Tomoe version was already locked in this "Reminiscence" version, and my head and body could not deviate even a millimeter from this version.

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Incidentally, now, when I have to get into the "zone" to write a paper or patent, I start my dive with this music (link to YouTube).

My family seems to stay away from me when this music is coming from my room.

As for me, I hope this song will be used in the movie.

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No,way. the movie "Rurouni Kenshin the beginning" is coming next month.

I am sure that the world of this "Reminiscence" will appear in the last movie of this series.

Now, I have started a new serialization whose title is "An Engineer Who NEVER Loved by Money"

One of the trial is "using Crypto Assets (Virtual Currency)".

I have already started to get Bitcoins by even small amount of money.

However, as if my trial were under watch, Bitcoins began to fall.

Since then, I contributed my column of "I don't understand how to credit Bitcoins", so this might be

"Curse from Bitcoins"

Enough of that.

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After starting to purchase Bitcoins, I came to feel an ambiguous "I want to support or save Bitcoins". To tell you the truth, "I was very surprised by me"

I know well that "this is an non-logical feeling".

However, I had same type of feeling by "Hatsune Miku", "AI tech, by my codes" or "Control LAN system from the scratch"

This is wonder feeling that I want to guard anything that I can get understand in my mind.

Ah! If this is "love"?

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If it is true, my love seems to appear easily and lightly.

From this period, I have transferred to a new research section. So I have reviewed and modified my carrier history sheet with illustrations in order to prepare for the meeting with my new boss.

While reviewing and modifying it, I was self-satisfied that

(1)How much I had done a lot of research.

and at the same time, I faced the reality of

(2)There is no research that had given something impact to the world.

I feel something I cannot make words.

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I have stuck to get the technical skills to survive in the research life.

However, that has generated "light footwork" I didn't obsess with any field of technology.

It is true that sectionalism with narrow-minded and obsession to protect what I can is ugly.

However, any break-through doesn't come to a person who is not interested to keep their own field

Which one you choose depends on you, however, "not developing the technical skill to survive" and "not fighting to protect your domain" may be risks for you.

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I can confidentially say that I have not spent any time making myself easy. However, it seems not related to "what I could do something great"

In short,

"I am happy to watch my program to work well"

"I love drinking non-alcoholic beer just after finishing writing columns"

I think that for a person like me, I cannot access the research field about the world's impact.

Well, it is O.K. for me.