Recently, the progress of my "old sight" is going to be faster.

I am afraid that "old sight" annoys many people for their works.

And it is absolutely an obstacle for me, as a programmer in my work.

Now I am trying new computer language, so I have to both read the instructional book and watch PC display again and again, almost over some hundred times.

Alternately, I have to repeat and repeat the above action.

This interruption annoys me seriously,

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Not only making English documents, patent applications and columns, but also programming, in special, makes me possessed by the supernatural, and I feel quick as a flash instead of passing several hours.

When I get the situation, I think I am no less than winning the work.

After that what I have to do is to just stand by watching God's job.

But, the wearing of far-sighted glasses bothers descending to earth, recently.

To tell you the truth, I am in trouble seriously.

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The other day, I know regaining my eyesight at the medical checkup.

Though I was about to say "It is nonsense", I think that human being might get another ability instead of losing a certain ability.

It is likely to be trying a shot in the dark, for "eye chart", for example.

When it is Coming-of-Age Day, I am afraid that a column or an advertisement that gives a sermon to a new adult selfimportantly comes out to newspapers.

I wrote about it before, and it is not necessary for new adults to lend the ear to such a silly talk.

You may think that

"A fool lowers a sermon selfimportantly"

We adults are making the ludic budget deficit and postponing the problem, so you don't have to listen our sermon seriously.

"If you want to talk your sermon to me, manage to do for the debt of the country at first"

Don't hesitate to indicate the point directly.

We are irresponsible adults with saying "it is responsibility of the politicians".

Thought I do not know what to do, even so, we adult cannot take a ‘so‐what' attitude about this problem.

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Repeated.

We are adult who have a plan to escape from this problem, enforcing the debt on you.

It is a waste of time to hear the words of such people seriously.

I wonder utterly, but an advice or a sermon

is done from the older to the younger.

It is irrational, I think.

There are many stupid youths, but there are many stupid adults at the same level.

Then I think that you may preach an adult a sermon from a youth.

However, such a thing is rarely performed.

I think about it, and it might be a correct answer of "the sermon to an adult is the same of the sermon to oneself in the future".

In opposite, "the sermon to a youth" is reliable, because time is irreversible.Sparks do not pour into oneself.

In a more unfair thing, it is convenient sermon with an escape route."You do not do the same my same failure for you."

This phrase really causes vomiting.

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(Continuation from yesterday)

Some people think that

"Why does Ebata hate "sermon" with violence"

The reason is that I have face unpleasant scenes more than others in my life.

(And it is an important point) I am a real person who know well that the sermons have never been useful for my life, at all.

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I can tell you that "any sermon has been meaningless"

The teacher of my life is "failure" that I have decided by myself, have carried it out by myself, and after that I have gotten by myself.

Only "a pain" of "the failure" has given me my life, and I don't know another way to live my life from now.

Though they are clunky and awkward, this is my life.

"I have to spend this "three-day weekend" for writing a column"

I gave up having free time for the three days, however, I could finish the draft version until noon of the second day.

It was very unusual for me.

To tell you the truth,

"I could not warp up the main issue because of much volume of the contents, I had to postpone it to the next month.

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How I should use the important final day ?

I felt excited like the first date (with a girl) in my life.(But I don't remember what was the first date.)

- Do I go skiing alone after a long time ? But I come to feel tiresome against "cool".

- Do I go the movie "Kizu-monogatari" ? But I will get mad with the movie, even if the movie is bored. And my daughter is watching the movie now, I may wait for her review of the movie.

- I have to draw an illustration of the column. But I cannot find a picture of my imagination.

During repeating "but" "but" "but", this rare important and valued day had gone.

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"Start without thinking first, and think with running" is my motto.

From this morning, I continue feeling self-hating.

Yesterday, I talked to the "rude junior co-worker" by phone about the review of my new column.

As usual, he gave me many critics against the column, and he started to tell me about the "souvenir affair".

Junior:"Do you really understand that you have betrayed us tremendously by your turnabout."

Ebata:"Too swollen. It is just a snack box at most isn't it?"

Junior:"You know, we don't envy your life style and thought at all"

Ebata:"..."

Junior:"However, we always enjoy your behaviour based on your unreasonable theory and policy. Can you understand that we all are observers of watching your daily troublesome with pleasure.

Ebata:"I can't understand what you said , but do I have to understand it?"

Junior:"After all these years, if you want to change your policy, you can indemnify me for the damage of souvenir, in compensation for retrogressive snacks, can't you?""

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I can't understand what he wanted to say, however,

my "souvenir affair" seems to be one of the most important accidents in his life.

Last night, I was very tied of attending the explanatory meeting of an accident of my daughter's school.

So, I took strong sleeping tablets last night, and I was sleeping deeply like in sea of mud, and I could not notice the clock alarms.

I rose late this morning.

I sent the mail to the office, and I checked my today's schedule. I breathed a sigh of relief because no important event at today.

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When I think about today's daily at the station now, I hear the announcement.

"The accident resulting in injury or death at Aikou-Ishida station now. We am sorry but we have to abandon the service of this train."

I don't feel a pain against the accident that happens any time with no question asked.

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Now I decide,

"The theme of next my serialisation is "suicide" after "diet"".

At the end of this month, I am going to have an meeting at the editorial department. I will present this new serialisation about "suicide".

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Let us talk genuinely.

In the local library where I live in, I can find many books that I want to read by the net service.

Since my house has no space and money for many books, it is not too exaggerated that the local library is really "a life-line of the intellect".

I think that we, family members might borrow more than 200 books a year from the library.

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Recently I get worried that there are some new books that I borrow in the library.

What the book that had been published is still new, it means the book is not popular.

The means the purchase of unpopular book is that our tax is not returned to us.

If public libraries abandons to buy such unpopular books, however, I am going to be stuck at my writing soon.

I am afraid that any manager of public libraries are anxious about the balance of purchase budget.

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(Continuation from yesterday)

Even if so, I don't know whether we should jump to a digital book that enables to be downloaded from the Internet, to tell you the truth.

I said before that the effect of electric-reader is far from that of paper.

(But when the electric-reader that is used as just paper, comes, I am going to back away from my opinion.)

In addition, public libraries has another function that is called "Public Community Square", except for the book check-out/check-in.

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I am a person who thinks "Knowledge is power".

Please be careful that I don't speak about the story of "Accumulation of knowledge".

I say that "Knowledge is power as violence device to let persons obey me".

And I intend to continue making the power without a pause.

in order to get ready for a battle immediately anywhere anytime for me and my family.

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I cannot have a image of "armed library in the future", however, I also think we cannot deny that libraries are another power as antithese of state power.

From the viewpoint of power balance, maintenance of libraries is inevitable. however,

I cannot make an image of "future libraries".

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Anyway libraries is very helpful for me.

I thank any library obediently.

I often have been asked by my senior daughter before "I want to cut your hair when it becomes long".

I wrote the story of "I am not interested in my hair style at all" several times.

So I have had no reason to reject her proposal, however, I think that "cutting hair in my house" annoys me.

Anyway, I think that even "10 min. cut" spends much time, and

"3 min. cut" is enough for me.

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In this weekend too, I was groaning in the writing deadline and my hair became bothersome and I was irritated.

So I decided to have the senior daughter cut my hair.

It was the last night when the event happened in the bathroom.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

She bedded news paper in the wash place, and I let my upper body out of the bathtub and put my head toward her. After that she started cutting my hair roughly.

It was an odd scene that the senior daughter used the scissors sitting with her legs crossed, and the junior daughter stood up around her auditing the senior daughter's jobs.

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I thought her work was great because she could complete my requirement of "cut short, above all" instead of her first trial. She looked like happy after my comments.

She, who said "I might become to work for hairdressing"

had taken a mock examination of "the national center test for university" at that day. ( I don't know her results of that)

My wife was anxious about balding head partly with her sigh. But I don't care it because the parts become to fade into the background in one week.

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I think that coworkers in my office will not say anything about my hair style as usual (It seems to be an unspoken agreement in my office), however, I remember the promise of the meeting and the interviewing in next weekend and after.

So I will tell both Mr.K and Miss.M my attention in advance.

"You may set your mind at ease. because I didn't have any accident, like "the lynch against the young ladies who had cooperated Nazi after the World War 2 in France".

The winners of the Internet is not me, at least. They are Google, Amazon, and Twitter and Facebook. I am afraid that nobody can argue against the facts.

Thinking communication protocol, making the proto-type and implementing the logic to devices, we. who had continued the work for the Internet's progress , was just working free for long time.

To tell you the truth, I am irritated.

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I think that making infrastructures doesn't pay much, and managing infrastructure is not so much respectable.

Especially, the social infrastructures (communication, water, gas electricity train and traffic) are absolutely necessary for our life;

Nevertheless, nobody applauds the system's activities for 24hours 365days. When they become in trouble and down, we are scolded terribly.

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Business persons go to their office and work everyday and get some money.

House keepers keep their house maintenance and should be care of the communication of neighbourhood.

Children should go to school and enforce to study everyday, and is going to be given their performance values though they don't want.

In most cases, their efforts are presumed and nobody applauds our activities, and , we are scolded terribly when we neglect the duties.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

I am afraid that there are many fine persons in the world.

In addition, the world manages to be organised by the many fine persons.

In many fine persons, it might be difficult for us to do more admirable something.

As a result, we are going to support this society where nobody can applauds others.

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- Using a lapping mechanism that MinGW64 GCC complier allocates makes C++ class method for global function,

- I turn the class instance into a thread, and enable to make a lot of the thread for a moment,

- the mechanism makes the management of both client and a server nodes easier,

- There is hope that I am going to make a resource mediation among the modes.

Well, I know well.

I think nobody can understand the above and , and nobody applauds me.

My small my voice "Bingo!"is fading to the ceiling of our lab's room where nobody is. I think "that is it".

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So only I am going to applaud me.

I give a lot of praises, like "Good job!" "Great effort!" to me.

I am also going to party for me.

So, today, I decided to be going to provide me into "Hokkyoku-Ramen" in Mouko-Tanmen Nakamoto in Machida.

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

"Let's turn the world by "Number" Diet (25)

"Diet destroys your brain. It is dangerous "negative feedback""

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In this column, my comment,

The junior fellow who appeared in this column

"Why don't you redo it from beginning?"

has existed.

I might have told you the story that I had given more than 100 times of marriage propose to my wife,

I am afraid that You might be irritated to hear my same stories again and again, however, I hope you are going to be with me.

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At the last weekend dinner, from the story of "the senior daughter can get married by law", the topic was

"When did mon decide the marriage with papa? "

was reached.

Of course, I know well that my propose had not related to her decision.

My wife seemed to try to remember about it, and said that

Well, It was a time when my mother gave me an advice,

"Whenever you feel to fail, return to here"

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I think "I wondered who has proposed her ? It was likely to be not me but her mother," however,

I also think "This is one of the most superior advice in the world"

Fortunately, we are permitted for both divorcement and remarriage by law (There are some nations that don't allow them by their religion or unfair discrimination.

So all we have to do are to take advantage of this lucky situation.

It was also "a truth love of mother for her children who is in trouble of marriage with giving slight and gentle shove in the back.(Ordinal people might come to think the above, first?)

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I didn't come to think that

"I can hear it as a phrase of "Ebata is not a bad vehicle, even if we treat him as a case study""

at all.

Recently, I make a program by Python, but I return to C/C++ imperceptibly.

But I have no special reason to choose C/C++ after all these years.

Executive speed and memory are good enough in the present PC.

C/C++ annoys me to use characters and manage memories by hand. If I neglect the processes, they system might become down.(In face, I had made an accident of system down)

In spite of the above demerits. Why I return to C/C++ is that it is my mother tongue.

It is only my stress-less computer language that I don't have o read the textbook.

For example, I could complete the code for half of a day, even if using 5 says by Python,

It was as if a difference between English and Japanese when I write my diary, (Maybe It is more.)

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

- Why do I make and manage "The Ebata's mailing list" as opposed to use LINE by all members of family ?

- Why I make the program of command line interface as opposed to use a Web browser by Java script ?

- When I continue to use a domestic cell phone as opposite to use smart phone.

Believe or not, they are the most useful methods and devices for me, and I can e exercise my best performance by them.

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In short,

I hope that you don't run me to ground by your common sense, just argument, and effectiveness.

I know well about you are right.

I could not understand that why my boss didn't abandon "FORTRAN" when I was a newcomer.

But I can do it.

Because getting new knowledges are always painful for everyone.

Unless there are great merits that overcome the pain, we cannot abandon our useful and favourite tools.

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So,

I am programming at the corner of the experimental laboratory in order not to cause trouble for people, if possible.

I will make a committed fruit by C/C++.

So, please leave me alone for a while.

When I wrote the article related to LBGT,

I thought that the article included some knowledges and data about LBGT, but it didn't have the sprits of LBGT. So I examined to go from the style.

In my case, the one of them was to disguise me in woman's clothes.

At that time I asked my wife about my "man in skirts", she gave me the advice of

"It might become harmful. You will destroy the reader's nerutal understanding of LBGT, unless there are clear hypothesis of the aiming and effect".

After all, I gave up the trial.

But my wife never disapproved my proposal at that time.

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Last night, from a small talk, I asked my family(all women)

"Do you mind trying to assume me a woman's disguise and rambling about the streets ?"

All of them said "Not at all" at the moment.

The next question was

"Do you mind leaving for office with mon from the entrence ?"

They said "we don't care at all", except for my wife.

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"So do you mind my retirement from my company and making my new company ?"

All of them said at the same time,

"Absolutely YES ! "

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I could understand what my family expect me to do.

When a boss said to a subordinate "Quit this company, this dummy goldbricker!", it will be identified as the power harassment by law as soon as possible.

In any case of the subordinates service record, a court will hand down a sentence that all granted the plaintiffs' demands (of both compensation for damage and guarantee the positions)

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Getting the review of my column at the other day,

"This company is really open-minded, I think. Because the person like Ebata-san is in the employ of this company."

In addition,

"Ebata-san, You must acknowledge the kindness of this company. Can you hear me?"

I had a lecture from the junior coworker who is 10 years younger than me.

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Would you teach me that what kind of harassment he gave me ?

My new column is released, so I take a day off.

Mr.Ebata's struggling for DIY Home Security System by EtherCAT(7) "

Both the master and the maids try to spin the stepping motor.

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By the way,

In technical descriptive columns for persons in the science and engineering majors,

a engineer who use the words "eroticism", "love", "doodoo", and "pee" with frequency

is me only around the world.

I believe it seriously.

On my desk in my room at the present, I scatter

five EhterCAT slaves, 10 meters Ethernet cables, four 24V LED lights, sensors device of temperature, human detector, luxmeter, four bread boards and several transistor IC

For the final stage of EtherCAT serialisation, I am preparing for these cable and devices, in order to install the home security system on the Ebata's house.

There are two communication systems that has already installed on my house. One is for the Internet service, and the other is for the outdoor monitoring system.

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My wife looks uneasy. She is likely to ask me

"Are you going to do anything moreover ?"

I put my wife at ease with saying "It is no problem. This is just a temporally experiment installation."

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I am afraid that the day of the completion date is not decided at the present.

It is same as the existing systems.

The old days, reporters of weather forecast made an irresponsible statement.

I can put the statement out immediately now.

"Fair, later, occasionally cloudy. Sudden shower or thundershower in some areas "

Everybody can understand that the above phrase is "zero information", so I don't need to introduce you the Channon's information theory,

(To tell you the truth, the phrase includes information of "no snow" or "no typhoon")

In fact, it is said that "weather forecast" is one of the most difficult problems.

Even there are a lot of climate monitoring points in Japan, and weather satellite from the satellites' orbits.

According to the calculation difficulty, both "battfly effect" are "weather forecast" is always argued at the same time.

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Recently I often come across some younger researchers in the office

who are trying to watch the earth image from the satellite in their PC display.

The day before yesterday, the younger checked the snow in Kanto area.

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Until it is the Meiji era, to establish a calendar and expect weather are the duties that it is important and are monopolistic of the government.

It was a kind of the authority of the power of the states.

Then staring at a real-time picture of the earth from a weather satellite and doing "a weather forecast" by oneself are perfect

"Revolution"

I think.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

Primitively, any nation should seek "zero-crime society" but the numbers of crime victim seem not be declining.

In addition, getting the taxes is a more important task for a nation than bringing the crime rate down.

The purpose of "my number system" is to simplify a collaboration of interministerial systems using the "individual ID number" because of a luck of alliance's efforts.

On the other hand,

Trying to make DIY Home Security system, like me, is about to appeal a sense of uncertainty against policy, so called ... not violence devices, but security duty organisation.

Installing auto tax payment systems, for example "e-Tax" is a explicit evident that the system become destroying.

Starting "my number system" is to shift the responsibility about the poor administrative services that cannot manage the user and the luck of governance among ministries and agencies, to us(people in Japan).

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Come to think of it, any government systems

that include the main functions of monitoring and management of people, of course,

abandon both the powers of the state and important vested interests, in conclusion.

From the different angles, we can say,

"We live in revolution every day",

that means "powers are movable easily everywhere". I think that we have to live our life in annoying days.