(Continuation from yesterday)

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I am sorry for this big prelude.

For almost two months, I had been a leader of the moving project of the laboratory, and I had been in the battle front of "the territorial problem", of the departments and units.

To keep our workplace environment not to have any disadvantage, I was engaged earnestly among the leader of other department in order to maintain our section territory by negotiations, using sob story, blackmail, entreaty, belly‐talk, and compromise again and again.

While making light of "the principle of territory", and making fun of "nationalism", what I did is not so much difference from a politician of the nationalism and an activist of the nationalism.

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I think that I having been chosen as such a "moving leader person" because of my capability limitation. But positively thinking, it is also the reason "I am a right who is a detailer".

The right person,

who don't never believe the target significance and purpose at all thought,

the moment when it is immobilized as "a mission"

is going to be able to concentrate all energy for the successful execution of the mission

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He/She, without principles and faith (or with principles and faith), can carry it out solemnly when the order from the top falls. They can use the double standard, and feels no pain.

I am such worst guy.