(Continuation from yesterday)

When I was a teenager, I also thought that "I want a genuine article".

I really believed that there was "real grit" in the world.

But it might just in the field of mathmatics or physics (or I don't find it even if it is in the world because I am a mediocre person)

I think now that I was happy to give up searching it.

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My seniors or fellows who never gave up finding "real grit" were falling into ruin in the dark side.

Towards "revolution" or "religion" or anything which who has not yet watched.

They believed that "anyone, except for me, made something wrose. So if we destroy the something, it become to go well".

After all, they ruined themselves by various antisocial acts (including terrorism and the cult),

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I think that the characters in this book are better than my seniors, fellows and I.

Though they are starving to get "real grit", they are not going to pass the buck to others and society even if they are in trouble.

They don't shift the responsibility to outside, don'trun away from the problem and don't destroy the problem, they try to being up against the problem.

I am impressed by the figure obediently.

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But such a way of life is quite hard.

Escaping in mathematics and physics is much more comfortable.

As far as I know, the defeat rate of fight to confront my heart is 100% for seeking "real grit".

Still are they going to continue the fight ?

I who ran away quickly before finishing my teenager, want to make sure of "it".