(Continuation from yesterday)

It is fearful for me that I cannot use PC.

The center of my world is made from "loves", and the special tool that put "loves" into shape, is a computer.

(*)Above all, the old days, I had been called "perpetual-motion machine of love"

"Computer, this annoying and foolish machine, needs a lot of helps of human being, and if you want to get it work well, you have to give many supports to computer.

At the same time, however, it is also a lovable machine because it can work if I give the correct orders to it.

As far as I am concerned, blocking communication with a computer means that to lose a method in order to realize "loves", and discontinuity with the world.

It is really serious for me.

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Whenever I have a power to hit a keyboard and watch a display, I am sure that I make me happy.

However I have seen that even the power is going to be lost near myself in real-time,

like "one after the other"

In addition, now I have already started the deterioration of visual and hearing power absolutely.

I come to get tired easily, and need much time to recover from the fatigue.

I have a lot of things I want to do, however, I feel that "aging" starts to prevent me from trying them.

(To be continued)