Recently, there are certain reasons, I am completely stopping alcohol consumption now. I do not even mention 1 milliliter.
However, in April there are many drinking party and I am embarrassed to be honest.
At the drinking party 's seat,
Colleague: "Mr. Ebata, the doctor stooped it?"
Every time I responded
Ebata: "Ha-ha, do you think that even a doctor can stop me?"
with smiling, nobody comes to touch this topic to be recognized something.
Set it aside.
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When I do not drink, I can see something various.
"Personal collapse presumably according to alcohol sumption"
To me, it is clearly visible, honestly, it's really "scary."
Because I will "observe" a lot about people at the next seats, who is changing to a different personality (or hidden personality) from the start time of the drinking party.
I have not able to be feel "fear" since now. I think the reason is that I also change the my personality with drinking, and start to live in the another world.
The feeling is, ... let me think... " Okabe's Reading Steiner"
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My wife is a so-called "Geko" who has no alcohol decomposing ability by nature.
So I asked her
"Have you ever lived such a scary life until now?"
However she responded, "I never thought of scary, in particular"
I felt a deep emotion that there was an "observer of loneliness" close to me.