"I should have talked to my dad more."

I remember my late father.

I am currently experiencing ongoing mental illness.

According to my self-analysis, the leading causes are (1) task overflow and (2) fear of not being able to see the goal of the task.

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My father started his own woodworking company at an age slightly younger than me, and from my point of view, he continued to suffer the 'hell of subcontractors.'

Money laundering, dishonoring, threats from gangsters, chain-reaction bankruptcies, and the suicides of the president of an affiliated company and his wife - there was a "hell" that could not be compared to my situation.

There must have been more horrendous "hells" than this since there were so many stories just from what I can see.

I hate those who shout "start a business" quickly or encourage people to do so.

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Excerpt from "Mr. Ebata's DIY Struggle: Building a Home Security System with EtherCAT (4)

When I was a freshman in college, my father's woodworking company, which he had started, was hit by a chain reaction bankruptcy. The couple behind the bankruptcy were driven into a corner by the Yakuza, and after escaping their sons, they committed suicide together. At that time, I was prepared to drop out of college.

For those who believe that "entrepreneurs are properly protected according to the law," I suggest you take a moment to examine the violent apparatus of the underworld and the composition of suicides in Japan.

As far as I can remember, the world has not been so kind to us as to let us "fail and it's over."

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I am confident that if I were faced with such a "hell," I would easily jump over mental illness and commit suicide.

"How in the world did my father go through these "hell days"? "

When I think about it like that, I have the biggest regret that I didn't get the know-how out of this precious person, saying, 'I wish I had talked to my father more and more.'