Lately, when I get into bed, the unfinished task list and coding run wild in my head.

It is getting harder and harder to sleep, even with stabilizers and sleeping pills, and I am starting to feel like I am about to turn to "alcohol."

After several years of sobriety, my sobriety is already in a bad situation.

My wife is trying to convince me to stop my "alcoholic" from returning.

I, too, have managed to stand my ground.

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The suffering of insomnia is not understood by those who do not have insomnia.

You can't understand the hell of not only being unable to sleep but also having to drag your leaden body and head back to work the next day.

On the other hand, there is the late Prime Minister Abe, who continued to perform his duties while enduring the pain of his illness.

He has endured the most challenging work in Japan, serving as the country's prime minister while battling an intractable disease and taking great pain.

And so, "How is that possible?" I am incredulous.

I believe strong convictions supported him, but such people are scarce.

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Only that person can understand their suffering and their physical or psychological ailments.

As for how to share pain, I have researched here, but the fact is that it is "not possible" from a medical and engineering standpoint.

The least we can do as human beings is to believe, without questioning, the words of those who say they are in "pain" or "suffering" and to accept them as they say.

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Anyone who says that someone who is "in pain" or "suffering" is "weak" -- that's the worst.

If the mayor of Higashiomi, Shiga Prefecture's statement that "(public support for free schools) could undermine the very foundation of the nation" and that "most truancy is the responsibility of parents" is based on the above logic -- then

At the very least, you are 'my enemy' and will continue to be 'the subject of continued surveillance.